A crazy conversation with my inner voice !

I wrote a few minutes ago the following: “My Career Goal: To employ specifically two people: one academic writer with background in journalism and one biostatistian (just for myself!) alongside of the team of students and researchers; in a great lab which is coming to reality… “Then this came to my mind; an inner voice: Hey, Mitra, These are not goals. These are vehicles to aid you to reach your destination!

Then what is your goal? I replied: Ok, from academic metric point of view, I want to be a Professor in couple of years and double my h-index in 5 years and run several projects! Again the person in my head said: Ok, Mitra... These are better ideas and you can call them at least goal... But do you want to limit yourself to these? Of course NOT, you can do better! … Then, you need to think bigger and aim for higher!

I said to my inside person, OK, you are right!

I want to have a great team. I still definitely will employ an academic writer in next 2 years and I would love to dream of an academic miracle and have an h-index of 40 in 3 years! Then so what? What’s wrong with me?

I know I need to think bigger and aim for higher, but this is for now! OK, ... I shouted at my inner voice! And continued: Listen:  And at the end, what I want? I want a peaceful and happy life for myself and my family. I want to be able to be in a position to help others … I want to do something to bring the benefit to the science and society …  These are the things that counts in our short Life! …The truth is we don't know what is going to happen tomorrow. Life is a crazy ride, and nothing is guaranteed and we should to be grateful for each moment. 

I like this quote from Buddha to finish with : “To enjoy good health, to bring true happiness to one's family, to bring peace to all, one must first discipline and control one's own mind. If a man can control his mind he can find the way to Enlightenment, and all wisdom and virtue will naturally come to him.” And that’s it. I need to learn to control my own mind!

 

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