"Whenever I look back" said night
"You're there."
"Looking back is okay" said light
"But.... don't stare".

Lemn Sissay

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A crazy conversation with my inner voice !

I wrote a few minutes ago the following: “My Career Goal: To employ specifically two people: one academic writer with background in journalism and one biostatistian (just for myself!) alongside of the team of students and researchers; in a great lab which is coming to reality… “Then this came to my mind; an inner voice: Hey, Mitra, These are not goals. These are vehicles to aid you to reach your destination!

Then what is your goal? I replied: Ok, from academic metric point of view, I want to be a Professor in couple of years and double my h-index in 5 years and run several projects! Again the person in my head said: Ok, Mitra... These are better ideas and you can call them at least goal... But do you want to limit yourself to these? Of course NOT, you can do better! … Then, you need to think bigger and aim for higher!

I said to my inside person, OK, you are right!

I want to have a great team. I still definitely will employ an academic writer in next 2 years and I would love to dream of an academic miracle and have an h-index of 40 in 3 years! Then so what? What’s wrong with me?

I know I need to think bigger and aim for higher, but this is for now! OK, ... I shouted at my inner voice! And continued: Listen:  And at the end, what I want? I want a peaceful and happy life for myself and my family. I want to be able to be in a position to help others … I want to do something to bring the benefit to the science and society …  These are the things that counts in our short Life! …The truth is we don't know what is going to happen tomorrow. Life is a crazy ride, and nothing is guaranteed and we should to be grateful for each moment. 

I like this quote from Buddha to finish with : “To enjoy good health, to bring true happiness to one's family, to bring peace to all, one must first discipline and control one's own mind. If a man can control his mind he can find the way to Enlightenment, and all wisdom and virtue will naturally come to him.” And that’s it. I need to learn to control my own mind!

 

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"Let It Go"


The snow glows white on the mountain tonight
Not a footprint to be seen
A kingdom of isolation,
And it looks like I'm the queen.

The wind is howling like this swirling storm inside
Couldn't keep it in, heaven knows I tried!

Don't let them in, don't let them see
Be the good girl you always have to be
Conceal, don't feel, don't let them know
Well, now they know!

Let it go, let it go
Can't hold it back anymore
Let it go, let it go
Turn away and slam the door!

I don't care
What they're going to say
Let the storm rage on,
The cold never bothered me anyway!

It's funny how some distance
Makes everything seem small
And the fears that once controlled me
Can't get to me at all!

It's time to see what I can do
To test the limits and break through
No right, no wrong, no rules for me I'm free!

Let it go, let it go
I am one with the wind and sky
Let it go, let it go
You'll never see me cry!

Here I stand
And here I'll stay
Let the storm rage on!

My power flurries through the air into the ground
My soul is spiraling in frozen fractals all around
And one thought crystallizes like an icy blast
I'm never going back,
The past is in the past!

Let it go, let it go
And I'll rise like the break of dawn
Let it go, let it go
That perfect girl is gone!

Here I stand
In the light of day
Let the storm rage on,
The cold never bothered me anyway!

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آن لقمه که در دهان نگنجد به طلب

وان علم که در نشان نگنجد به طلب

Doing as others told me,I was blind.
Coming when others called me,I was lost.
Then i left everyone,myself as well.
Then i found everyone,myself as well.
~Rumi

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