بس بگردید و بگردد روزگار دل به دنیا در نبندد هوشیار این هم آهنگ امروز .. هر که دلارام دید از دلش آرام رفت چشم ندارد خلاص هر که در این دام رفت یاد تو میرفت و ما عاشق و بیدل بدیم پرده برانداختی کار به اتمام رفت ما قدم از سر کنیم در طلب دوستان راه به جایی نبرد هر که به اقدام رفت همت سعدی به عشق میل نکردی ولی می چو فروشد به کام عقل به ناکام رفت ......... **** Now is rainy here and a little cold . Yesterday was sunny and amazingly warm ( 29 degree) which is very unusual for september . A nice story : A couple of days ago my supervisior called me and he asked if I can do some tests for one of his friends and of course I said yes . The next day , that gentleman arrived before my supervisior and we started talking about his problem , I found that he is a medical doctor too but I didn't feel to ask exactly , then my supervisior arrived but he left soon . Then I went to another room with him and I felt that the nurse in our ward knew him as she behaved respectfully . Anyway , I finished my examination that day and we arranged for another day to do some more tests , by the mean time after his leaving I checked his name in internet and I found he is a professor in Rhematology and a famous consultant in our hospital ( ( ) , but he was so hambling and down to earth , Anyway , he came back today again and then he asked where I am from , and when I said from Iran ,and then he asked about the city and when he found I am from Mashad , he said : " The city with famous rugs and carpets" !!!! and then he said what happened to you after Shah , is it safe to travel there ? I love to see your old Empire !!!!! and the classes started , but my teaching programmes starts from Monday , Saturday is first of Mehr and the first day of schools in Iran and we are going back to work too , actually this year will be the third year that I'm teaching the sme module , therfore I feel more confidence but still I need to study before that . Students already came back
ایکه دستت میرسد کاری بکن پیش از آن کز تو نیاید هیچ کار ...
بس بگردید و بگردد روزگار دل به دنیا در نبندد هوشیار
این هم آهنگ امروز ..
هر که دلارام دید از دلش آرام رفت
چشم ندارد خلاص هر که در این دام رفت
یاد تو میرفت و ما عاشق و بیدل بدیم
پرده برانداختی کار به اتمام رفت
ما قدم از سر کنیم در طلب دوستان
راه به جایی نبرد هر که به اقدام رفت
همت سعدی به عشق میل نکردی ولی
می چو فروشد به کام عقل به ناکام رفت
Now is rainy here and a little cold . Yesterday was sunny and amazingly warm ( 29
degree) which is very unusual for september .
A nice story : A couple of days ago my supervisior called me and he asked if I can do some tests for one of his friends and of course I said yes .
The next day , that gentleman arrived before my supervisior and we started talking about his problem , I found that he is a medical doctor too but I didn't feel to ask exactly , then my supervisior arrived but he left soon . Then I went to another room with him and I felt that the nurse in our ward knew him as she behaved respectfully .
Anyway , I finished my examination that day and we arranged for another day to do some more tests , by the mean time after his leaving I checked his name in internet and I found he is a professor in Rhematology and a famous consultant in our hospital ( ( ) , but he was so hambling and down to earth , Anyway , he came back today again and then he asked where I am from , and when I said from Iran ,and then he asked about the city and when he found I am from Mashad , he said : " The city with famous rugs and carpets" !!!! and then he said what happened to you after Shah , is it safe to travel there ? I love to see your old Empire !!!!!
and the classes started , but my teaching programmes starts from Monday , Saturday is first of Mehr and the first day of schools in Iran and we are going back to work too , actually this year will be the third year that I'm teaching the sme module , therfore I feel more confidence but still I need to study before that . Students already came back
|گر فاش شود عیوب پنهانی ما||ای وای به خجلت و پریشانی ما|
|ما غره به دینداری و شاد از اسلام|
گبران متنفر از مسلمانی ما
(هاتف اصفهانی )
ای ایران ای مرز پرگُهر ای خاکت سرچشمهٔ هنر
دور از تو اندیشهٔ بَدان پاینده مانی تو جاودان
ای دشمن ار تو سنگ خارهای من آهنام جان من فدای خاک پاک میهنم
مهر تو چون، شد پیشهام دور از تو نیست اندیشهام
در راه تو، کِی ارزشی دارد این جان ما پاینده باد خاک ایران ما
سنگ کوهت درّ و گوهر است خاک دشتت بهتر از زر است
مهرت از دل کِی برون کنم بَرگو بی مهرِ تو چون کنم
تا گردش جهان و دور آسمان بهپاست نورِ ایزدی همیشه رهنمای ماست
مهر تو چون، شد پیشهام دور از تو نیست اندیشهام
در راه تو، کِی ارزشی دارد این جان ما پاینده باد خاک ایران ما
ایران ای خرّم بهشت من روشن از تو سرنوشت من
گر آتش بارد به پیکرم جز مهرت در دل نپرورم
از آب و خاک و مهرِ تو سرشته شد گِلم مهر اگر برون رود تهی شود دلم
مهر تو چون، شد پیشهام دور از تو نیست اندیشهام
در راه تو کِی ارزشی دارد این جان ما پاینده باد خاک ایران ما
تو مرو ....
( امروز یک وب بلاگ جالب با کلی ترانه های قدیمی و زیبا پیدا کردم ٬ حیفم اومد چند تا از اون ترانه ها رو اینجا نذارم . )
مانده ام، مانده ام در حسرت بالا بلايي روز و شب
جان دهم از دوري دير آشنايي روز و شب
Today is our wedding anniversary , now is the 6th year ! I can't believe it how the time is flying fast ! I think it was just yeaterday , a sunny lovely Shahrivar day ! ....
I didn't start the day with a good mood today , I found one of my paper which we did in collaboration with another group in Auckland has been rejected and ..., we should try again ! I'm not afraid to lose , but I hate to fail !
But the good news , is that the confocal is working properly today. Yesterday when a Professor from Michigan unversity came to see our lab and stablish a similar lab in US , it stoped to work at the end and there wasn't any signal from that in monitor ,but this morning , I checked all the system and cables and it backed to work again ! Thanks God !
I don't know why I am worry all the times for nothing ! For our job , for our future , for my thesis, for papers , ..... I am a little silly ! I have a great and fantastic family , a great parents , a lovely husband and a fantastic brother who everyone wish to have , but still I am worry and sometimes stressful !!! It's very bad when you don't feel satisfy from your work when everyone else admires you , I shouldn't be like that ! I have everyhing that I wished to have ! I should just Thanks God for all of his Love , Kindness & Support ! I should be more happy ! My sadness is just because of autumn and I feel more homesick in the sunny shiny days near to Mehr & I wish I was still a kid .....
I shouldn't forget this sentence from Henry Van Dyke : " Be glad of life because it gives you the chance to love and to work and to play and to look up at the stars. " and it's really true, indeed !
بر سر راه دیگران ٬جهانهایی هست ٬جهانهایی در خورشید ٬که می توانند در آنها به هم دیدار کنند اما راه تو این است ٬ و اکنون است٬ اکنون ٬ که تو نباید از پا در افتی ٬ بگری٬ اگر می توانی بگری ٬ لیکن شکوه مکن ٬ راه تو را بر می گزیند و تو باید سپاسگزار باشی .
Last night we watched a very nice movie "Memories of a Geisha" ,the context of movie and the story was meaningful and we really enjoyed . It is based on the internationally acclaimed novel by Arthur Golden, Memoirs of a Geisha is a sweeping romantic epic set in a mysterious and exotic world that still casts a potent spell today. The story begins in the years before WWII when a penniless Japanese child is torn from her family to work as a maid in a geisha house. Watch some clips of the movie here .
This morning, I just woke up with this thing in my mind that the house is not tidy , I statred to some housekeeping , washing , cooking and cleaning and nearly when I finished ( still there is lots of work to do esp.ironing ) it was 12 , and after a shower,I did my breakfast. My father called me around 10.30 and I talked to them for half an hour , it looks from the time, they left here ,they feel more alone and missed me more , although I missed them so much too .
I plan to do some study this weekend, lets see how much I'll do....
One of my friend sent the following story in a email and I found it so intersting , Just read it :
يکي از دوستانم به نام پُل بهعنوان هديه کريسمس اتومبيلي از برادرش گرفت. شب کريسمس هنگامي که پل از ادارهاش خارج شد، پسربچهاي در اطراف آن اتومبيل قدم ميزد و با حالت تحسينآميزي آن را نگاه ميکرد. پسربچه پرسيد: «آقا اين ماشين مال شماست؟»
پل سر تکان داد و گفت «اين را برادرم براي کريسمس به من داده است.»
پسربچه متعجب شد و گفت: «منظورتان اين است که برادرتان آن را به شما داده و پولي براي آن نپرداختهايد؟ من آرزو دارم...» و مکث کرد. قطعاً پل ميدانست که او چه چيزي را آرزو ميکرد. او آرزو ميکرد که چنين برادري داشت، ولي آنچه پسربچه گفت سرتاپاي پل را به لرزه درآورد.
پسربچه ادامه داد: «که ميتوانستم برادري مثل او بودم.»
پل با تعجب به پسربچه نگاه کرد و بياراده گفت: «ميخواهي سوار شوي و دوري بزنيم؟»
پس از سواريِ کوتاهي پسربچه با چشمان درخشانش رو به پل کرد و گفت: «ممکن است جلوي آن پلهها توقف کنيد؟»
پسربچه از پلهها بالا دويد. پس از لحظهاي پل صداي برگشتن پسرک را شنيد، ولي او سريع حرکت نميکرد. وي برادر کوچک فلج خود را ميآورد. او برادرش را روي پله آخر نشاند و به اتومبيل اشاره کرد.
«بادي اين همان است که در طبقه بالا به تو گفتم. برادرش آن را براي کريسمس به او هديه داده و او پولي براي آن نپرداخته است. روزي من هم درست مانند آن را به تو هديه ميدهم و تو ميتواني همه چيزهاي زيبايي را که برايت تعريف کردم خودت ببيني.»
پل از اتومبيل پياده شد و آن را روي صندلي جلو نشاند. برادرِ بزرگتر هم با چشمان درخشان آمد و کنار او نشست و آنان سه نفري تعطيلات فراموشنشدنياي را با اتومبيلِ سواري شروع کردند.
در آن شب کريسمس پل فهميد که منظور حضرت مسيح چيست آنگاه که ميگويد: «در بخشيدن خوشي و سعادت بيشتري وجود دارد...»
I was in conference in Sweden during the last few days . The conference sessions were useful and informative and my talk went well. It was a great opportunity for me to meet some famous professors in my field from accorss the World but mainly Europe. We arrived to Copenhagen Airport and then we went via the new bridge of Oresund which coonects Denemark to Sweden . Oresund Bridge: The high bridge has the longest cable-stayed main span in the world for both road and rail traffic.
The conference and accomodation was in beatiful Ystads Saltsjöbad hotel , It's a very beatiful hotel next to sea with fantastic facility like a very nice and big spa and forest and sea .
We visited also a famous Viking musuem : Fotevikens Museum
In the Gala dinner of conference , a lovely local band came and they performed some nice songs without any instruments , and their last love song was Mamma Mia from famous swedish pop music group ABBA . Me & everyone else loved their art and we really enjoyed !! Listen ....
Mamma mia, here I go again
My my, how can I resist you
Mamma mia, does it show again
My my, just how much I've missed you
Yes, I've been brokenhearted
Blue since the day we parted
Why, why did I ever let you go
Mamma mia, now I really know
My my, I could never let you go.....
I'll write more later ....
A line from Ystad, south coast of Sweden !
نگفتمت مرو آنجا که آشنات منم
در این سرای فنا چشمه حیات منم
نگفتمت که به نقش جهان مشو راضی
که نقش بند سراپرده ی رضات منم
نگفتمت که چو مرغان به سوی دام مرو
بیا که قوت پرواز و پر و پات منم
نگفتمت که تو را راه زنند و سرد کنند
که آتش و تپش و گرمی هوات منم
نگفتمت که صفت های زشت بر تو نهند
که گم کنی که سر چشمه بقات منم
اگر چراغ دلی، دان که ره کجا باشد
وگر خدا صفتی، دان که کدخدات منم
ای مطربان ، ای مطربان ، بر دف زنید احوال من
من بیدلم ، من بیدلم ، من از کجا ، عشق از کجا....
اندکی صبر سحر نزديک است
امشب در سر شوری دارم
امشب در دل نوری دارم
باز امشب در اوج آسمانم
باشد رازی با ستارگانم
امشب یک سر شوق و شورم
از این عالم گویی دورم.....
"Exile has its own country.With obscure borders,unwritten conventions. It can bring unusual clarity.And exact strange sufferings, discreet mutilations.And its outermost limits,there may even be an expectional freedom. It is beyond heartbreak to reach that far. The other life-that world as I remember it,that grace of living -lives in me like a paralled universe.Always will until the day I die.No one can find it anymore. Sometimes late at night ,with the oud playing ,I open the window facing the square. I recite from the poem ,the verses breaking in my throat: "My hometown has been lost...With feverish effort, I have built myself a house. On the far side of the night.....""
The leaves start to fall from the trees and the days start to be shorter and shorter , Autumn is here again & I have a strange and weird feeling ! I love autumn and I love my city Mashad in Shahrivar & Mehr . From the time I am in exile (GHORBAT) I have this strange and nostalgic feeling mainly two times per year , one in Esfand and near Nourooz and one in Shahrivar and close to Mehr .
Lots of good memories from Autumn , school days and Mehr , my marriage was also this month , lots of great memories ,but I feel so homesick , I missed my parents , my brother and everything ...I want to cry !!!!
It's really true that exile has its own country and it's really hard to be separate from family and your loved ones , although I'm lucky that I'm not alone and my lovely ,caring husband is next to me ,and I am so busy with my work and study but still I feel homesick even after 4 years . But I know ,I should be more strong , this is the way that I chose and I am very happy with my work ....
دريا ، صبور و سنگين ٬مي خواند و مي نوشت :
« .... من خواب نيستم !
خاموش اگر نشستم ، مرداب نيستم !
روزي كه برخروشم و زنجير بگسلم ؛
روشن شود كه آتشم و آب نيستم ! »
( فریدون مشیری)
The man who said "I'd rather be lucky than good" saw deeply into life. People are afraid to face how great a part of life is dependent on luck. It's scary to think so much is out of one's control. There are moments in a match when the ball hits the top of the net and for a split second it can either go forward or fall back. With a little luck it goes forward and you win. Or maybe it doesn't and you lose. *
1: Today was rainy and I stayed at home to do some house keeping , ironing ,cooking and watch a movie which I took up from gym last night : MATCH POINT* , it was really a nice movie . This film is a masterpiece and is a sure bet to win critical acclaim and many awards. The film is beautifully structured and the performances by all and sundry are exemplary. The film has so many layers and so many unexpected twists that this is obviously the work of a genius director in full flight (Woody Allen). The film starts with a nice statement about win and luck and finish very lovely when they wish for the new-born baby just luck , I'm thinking is it really "When you get lucky and things go your way ,is that always a good thing ? " This is really a big dilemma ...
2: I didn't find time to do any study today , in the late afternoon ,I went for a fast shopping in our local supermarket and in my way,I called to my Mum and Dad , I missed them so much....
3: Tomorrow, I should do some study and prepare and practice my talk . I don't know where I will be next week at this time. There is still lots of work to do and I should be more stronger and hard-worker.
4: I was amazed when I read in a atlas of geography a couple of hours ago when I found one of the main sources of Sweden is Uranium....
5: The bad news coming one after one from Iran. Well ,here is another one, yesterday more than 100 passengers killed in a plane fire in Mashad Airport. I 'm thinking how much is the cost of Iranian life? Last week , 24 students killed in the road and now another one, not to mention about accidents in the last year . It looks that our nation are more on the headlines because of the disasters ,more than any other nations. What do we really do about all these? Nothing !!! We grieve and wait for another one to happen, don't we?
6: And finally , this piece of music which made my day for finishing this post.
ای می بترم از تو
پر جوش ترم از تو
Yesterday is but a dream
And tomorrow is only a vision
But today well lived makes every
Yesterday a dream of happiness
And every tomorrow a vision of hope
Look well, therefore, to this day....
1: I did an IQ test today and my score was 130 , I don't know if it is good or not , the main problem was about my English deficiency which I had difficulty understanding the exact mean of questions and I didn't put enough care about questions, I think I was more clever when I was a child rather than now .
But anyway here is my results : " You've got a very experiential way of learning and a strong mathematical mind and you have mastered the art and science of precision. That's what makes you a Precision Processor. For you, life is a series of equations.
Your brain is naturally predisposed to intense mathematical acuity, so it's second nature for you to cut to the heart of an issue, to discover quick solutions while others get bogged down in unnecessary details. This allows you to communicate a variety of ideas to other people, so don't keep it to yourself. "
2: We just started a new routine for our daily scheduale, I decided to wake up soon around 6 in the morning and go to bed early around 10 and every evening after work, we planed to go to gym for 2 hours and I think this lifestyle will be healthierand more suit to our hectic life.
3: The news coming from our beloved country ,making all more worry everyday .It's a very difficult and complicated situation now , from one side ,it's the right of a nation to have the technology which all other westorn countries have and you can't banned them and from other side ,the only group wiill be hurt from the consequences western countrie decision will bepoor normal Iranian nations. Last evening when I was in gym ,the SKY NEWS channel reported live the president Bush talk from Salt Lake City . Although President Bush said : "There must be consequences for
And here is the song for today , I love it !! It brings all of memories from my first year here ....
4: I was talking to one friend (a lady near my mum age) yesterday and I was thinking how dare some people let them to ask about even more private issue of other peoples, when you don't know anything about themselves.
5: I should work very hard for next 5-6 months , as it is very important for my future academic career . From end of months , the students will be back and I should do some teaching . There are 2 conferences ahead and more important ,I should finish writing some papers . Lots of work .....
صد بار تو را گفتم کم خور دو سه پیمانه
در شهر یکی کس را هشیار نمی بینم
هر یک بتر از دیگر شوریده و دیوانه
ای لولی بر بط زن تو مست تری یا من
ای پیش چو تو مستی افسون من افسانه
از خانه برون رفتم مستیم به پیش آمد
در هر نظرش مضمر صد گلشن و کاشانه
چون کشتی بی لنگر کژ می شدو مژ می شد
وز حسرت او مرده صد عاقل و فرزانه
گفتم:زکجایی تو؟ تسخر زد و گفت ای جان
نیمیم ز ترکستان نیمیم ز فرغانه
نیمیم ز آب و گل نیمیم ز جان و دل
نیمیم لب دریا نیمی همه دردانه
گفتم که رفیقی کن با من که منت خویشم
گفتا که بنشناسم من خویش زبیگانه
من بی دل و دستارم در خانه ی خمارم
یک سینه سخن دارم هین شرح دهم یا نه
My favourite song
Today is so rainy here, I woke up soon and I walked all the way to hospital under this lovely rain , In the way I was thinking how much I am lucky and happy for everything that God gave me & how much I should be thanksful to God for all of his kindness and love !
I don't know but I feel more happy and more energitic in the rainy days , I feel so refresh , especially here occasional sun after rain ,... it's so beatiful
امروز نه آغاز و نه انجام جهان است .... ای بس غم و شادی که پس پرده نهان است
گر مرد رهی غم مخور از دوری و دیری ... دانی که رسیدن هنر گام زمان است
آبی که بر آسود زمینش بخورد زود ... دریا شود آن رود که پیوسته روان است
باشد که یکی هم به نشانی بنشیند ... بس تیر که در چله این کهنه کمان است
از راه مرو سایه که آن گوهر مقصود ... گنجی است که اندر قدم راهروان است
(هوشنگ ابتهاج )