I love this song from Kristina Agilera so much, especially with what I went through over the last year. At the end it just made me stronger, harder, wiser and indeed a fighter. But I don't really want to say Thank You !! 


So I wanna say thank you
'Cause it

Makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
It makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter

   + Passenger - ۸:٢٥ ‎ب.ظ ; جمعه ۱۱ تیر ۱۳٩٥


مرغ آمین درد آلودی است کاواره بمانده
رفته تا آنسوی این بیدادخانه
بازگشته رغبتش دیگر ز رنجوری نه سوی آب و دانه

   + MT - ۱۱:٢۱ ‎ق.ظ ; یکشنبه ۱٦ خرداد ۱۳٩٥


"Whenever I look back" said night
"You're there."
"Looking back is okay" said light
"But.... don't stare".

Lemn Sissay

   + Passenger - ٧:۱۸ ‎ب.ظ ; چهارشنبه ٢٩ اردیبهشت ۱۳٩٥

A crazy conversation with my inner voice !

I wrote a few minutes ago the following: “My Career Goal: To employ specifically two people: one academic writer with background in journalism and one biostatistian (just for myself!) alongside of the team of students and researchers; in a great lab which is coming to reality… “Then this came to my mind; an inner voice: Hey, Mitra, These are not goals. These are vehicles to aid you to reach your destination!

Then what is your goal? I replied: Ok, from academic metric point of view, I want to be a Professor in couple of years and double my h-index in 5 years and run several projects! Again the person in my head said: Ok, Mitra... These are better ideas and you can call them at least goal... But do you want to limit yourself to these? Of course NOT, you can do better! … Then, you need to think bigger and aim for higher!

I said to my inside person, OK, you are right!

I want to have a great team. I still definitely will employ an academic writer in next 2 years and I would love to dream of an academic miracle and have an h-index of 40 in 3 years! Then so what? What’s wrong with me?

I know I need to think bigger and aim for higher, but this is for now! OK, ... I shouted at my inner voice! And continued: Listen:  And at the end, what I want? I want a peaceful and happy life for myself and my family. I want to be able to be in a position to help others … I want to do something to bring the benefit to the science and society …  These are the things that counts in our short Life! …The truth is we don't know what is going to happen tomorrow. Life is a crazy ride, and nothing is guaranteed and we should to be grateful for each moment. 

I like this quote from Buddha to finish with : “To enjoy good health, to bring true happiness to one's family, to bring peace to all, one must first discipline and control one's own mind. If a man can control his mind he can find the way to Enlightenment, and all wisdom and virtue will naturally come to him.” And that’s it. I need to learn to control my own mind!


   + Passenger - ٥:٢۳ ‎ق.ظ ; شنبه ٢٥ اردیبهشت ۱۳٩٥

"Let It Go"

The snow glows white on the mountain tonight
Not a footprint to be seen
A kingdom of isolation,
And it looks like I'm the queen.

The wind is howling like this swirling storm inside
Couldn't keep it in, heaven knows I tried!

Don't let them in, don't let them see
Be the good girl you always have to be
Conceal, don't feel, don't let them know
Well, now they know!

Let it go, let it go
Can't hold it back anymore
Let it go, let it go
Turn away and slam the door!

I don't care
What they're going to say
Let the storm rage on,
The cold never bothered me anyway!

It's funny how some distance
Makes everything seem small
And the fears that once controlled me
Can't get to me at all!

It's time to see what I can do
To test the limits and break through
No right, no wrong, no rules for me I'm free!

Let it go, let it go
I am one with the wind and sky
Let it go, let it go
You'll never see me cry!

Here I stand
And here I'll stay
Let the storm rage on!

My power flurries through the air into the ground
My soul is spiraling in frozen fractals all around
And one thought crystallizes like an icy blast
I'm never going back,
The past is in the past!

Let it go, let it go
And I'll rise like the break of dawn
Let it go, let it go
That perfect girl is gone!

Here I stand
In the light of day
Let the storm rage on,
The cold never bothered me anyway!

   + Passenger - ۱٠:٢٠ ‎ب.ظ ; سه‌شنبه ۱٤ اردیبهشت ۱۳٩٥


آن لقمه که در دهان نگنجد به طلب

وان علم که در نشان نگنجد به طلب

Doing as others told me,I was blind.
Coming when others called me,I was lost.
Then i left everyone,myself as well.
Then i found everyone,myself as well.

   + Passenger - ٧:٤٩ ‎ب.ظ ; چهارشنبه ۱ اردیبهشت ۱۳٩٥

What I leaned in life

Paulo Coelho

"What I leaned in life:

That no matter how good a person is,
sometimes they can hurt you & because of this we must forgive.

It takes years to build trust and only seconds to destroy it ..

We don’t have to change friends if we understand that friends change..

The circumstances and the environment influence on our lives,
but we are the one who responsible for ourselves..

That you have to control your acts or they will control you..

That patience requires much practice.. that there are people who love us,
but simply don’t know how to show it..

That sometimes the person you think will hurt you and make you fall..
Is instead one of the few who will help you to get up..

You should never tell a child that dreams are fake, it would be a tragedy if they knew..

It’s not always enough to be forgiven by someone,
in most cases you have to forgive yourself first..

That no matter in how many pieces your heart is broken, the world doesn’t stop to fix it ..

May be God wants us to meet all the wrong people first before meeting the right one..
So when we finally meet the right one we are grateful for that gift ..

When the door of happiness closes, another door opens..
but often we look so long at the closed one.. we don’t see what was open for us ..

It’s true we don’t know what we have until we find it, but its also true,we don’t know what we’ve been missing until it arrives..

It only takes a minute to offend someone, an hour to like someone,
a day to love someone, but it takes a life time to forget someone.

Find someone who makes you smile, because it only takes a smile to make a day better,
find what makes your heart smile..

The best future is based on the forgotten past.."


Avoid those who believe they are stronger than you, because they are actually concealing their own fragility.

Stay close to those who are not afraid to be vulnerable, because they have confidence in themselves and know that, at some point in our lives, we all stumble; they do not interpret this as a sign of weakness, but of humanity.

Avoid those who seek friends in order to maintain a certain social status or to open doors they would not otherwise be able to approach.

Stay close to those who are interested in opening only one important door: the door to your heart. They will never invade your soul without your consent or shoot a deadly arrow through that open door.

Friendship is like a river; it flows around rocks, adapts itself to valleys and mountains, occasionally turns into a pool until the hollow in the ground is full and it can continue on its way.

Just as the river never forgets that it’s goal is the sea, so friendship never forgets that its only reason for existing is to love other people

(taken from "Manuscript found in Accra")

   + Passenger - ٩:٥۳ ‎ب.ظ ; دوشنبه ۳٠ فروردین ۱۳٩٥

Engage in a conversation with my heart

My horoscope today:


"Taking care of yourself is not just about eating the right food and getting enough exercise, Mitra, it also has to do with taking care of your emotions as well. If your mind is always buzzing around like a bumblebee, there is little time to stop and reflect on your feelings. Engage in a conversation with your heart and ask for guidance from a higher power to guide you where you need to go. Answers are not always rational and they certainly will not always be as blatant as you might like."

   + Passenger - ٦:۳٤ ‎ب.ظ ; سه‌شنبه ٢٥ اسفند ۱۳٩٤


You may write me down in history
With your bitter, twisted lies,
You may tread me in the very dirt
But still, like dust, I'll rise.

Does my sassiness upset you? 
Why are you beset with gloom? 
'Cause I walk like I've got oil wells
Pumping in my living room.

Just like moons and like suns,
With the certainty of tides,
Just like hopes springing high,
Still I'll rise.

Did you want to see me broken? 
Bowed head and lowered eyes? 
Shoulders falling down like teardrops.
Weakened by my soulful cries.

Does my haughtiness offend you? 
Don't you take it awful hard
'Cause I laugh like I've got gold mines
Diggin' in my own back yard.

You may shoot me with your words,
You may cut me with your eyes,
You may kill me with your hatefulness,
But still, like air, I'll rise.

Does my sexiness upset you? 
Does it come as a surprise
That I dance like I've got diamonds
At the meeting of my thighs? 

Out of the huts of history's shame
I rise
Up from a past that's rooted in pain
I rise
I'm a black ocean, leaping and wide,
Welling and swelling I bear in the tide.
Leaving behind nights of terror and fear
I rise
Into a daybreak that's wondrously clear
I rise
Bringing the gifts that my ancestors gave,
I am the dream and the hope of the slave.
I rise
I rise
I rise. 

   + Passenger - ۱٢:٠٧ ‎ق.ظ ; شنبه ۱٥ اسفند ۱۳٩٤


There's a dream, I feel
So rare, so real.
All the world in union
The world as one.

Gathering together
One mind, one heart.
Every creed, every colour
Once joined, never apart.

Searching for the best in me
I will find what I can be.
If I win, lose or draw
It's a victory for all.

It's the world in union
The world as one.
As we climb to reach our destiny
A new age has begun.

We may face high mountains,
Must cross rough seas.
We must take our place in history
And live with dignity.

Just to be the best I can
That's the goal for every man.
If I win, lose or draw
It's a victory for all.

It's the world in union
The world as one.
As we climb to reach our destiny
A new age has begun.

It's the world,
The world in union
A new age has begun.

   + Passenger - ۳:۳۱ ‎ق.ظ ; یکشنبه ٢ اسفند ۱۳٩٤


"Can't Hold Us Down"

So what am I not supposed to have an opinion
Should I be quiet just because I'm a woman
Call me a bitch cos I speak what's on my mind
Guess it's easier for you to swallow if I sat and smiled

When a female fires back
Suddenly big talker don't know how to act
So he does what any little boy would do
Making up a few false rumors or two

That for sure is not a man to me
Slanderin' names for popularity
It's sad you only get your fame through controversy
But now it's time for me to come and give you more to say

This is for my girls all around the world
Who've come across a man who don't respect your worth
Thinking all women should be seen, not heard
So what do we do girls?
Shout out loud!
Letting them know we're gonna stand our ground
Lift your hands high and wave them proud
Take a deep breath and say it loud
Never can, never will, can't hold us down

Nobody can hold us down
Nobody can hold us down
Nobody can hold us down
Never can, never will

So what am I not supposed to say what I'm saying
Are you offended by the message I'm bringing
Call me whatever cos your words don't mean a thing
Guess you ain't even a man enough to handle what I sing

If you look back in history
It's a common double standard of society
The guy gets all the glory the more he can score
While the girl can do the same and yet you call her a whore

I don't understand why it's okay
The guy can get away with it & the girl gets named
All my ladies come together and make a change
Start a new beginning for us everybody sing

This is for my girls all around the world
Who've come across a man who don't respect your worth
Thinking all women should be seen, not heard
What do we do girls?
Shout Out Loud!
Letting them know we're gonna stand our ground
Lift your hands high and wave 'em proud
Take a deep breath and say it loud
Never can, never will, can't hold us down

 This is for my girls all around the world
Who've come across a man who don't respect your worth
Thinking all women should be seen, not heard
So what do we do girls?
Should out loud!
Letting them know we're gonna stand our ground
Lift your hands high and wave 'em proud
Take a deep breath and say it loud

Never can, never will, can't hold us down
Spread the word, can't hold us down !!
Further hee

   + Passenger - ٧:٢٩ ‎ق.ظ ; شنبه ۱ اسفند ۱۳٩٤


اندیشه مکن بکن تو خود را در خواب
کاندیشه زه روی مه حجابست حجاب
دل چون ما هست در دل اندیشه مدار
انداز تو اندیشه گری را در اب


Don't even think, just let yourself dream.
Thoughts are veils that hide the moon's bright face.
The heart's a moon, where thinking has no place.
Toss these thoughts away into the stream.

   + Passenger - ٤:٥٠ ‎ق.ظ ; دوشنبه ۱٩ بهمن ۱۳٩٤


در کف هریک اگر شمعی بدی      اختلاف از گفتشان بیرون شدی

چشم حس همچون کف دست‌است و بس   نیست کف را بر همه او دست‌رس

چشم دریا دیگرست و کف دگر   کف بهل وز دیده دریا نگر

جنبش کف‌ها ز دریا روز و شب     کف همی بینی و دریا نی عجب

ما چو کشتی‌ها به هم برمی‌زنیم     تیره چشمیم و در آب روشنیم

ای تو در کشتی تن رفته به خواب        آب را دیدی نگر در آب آب


   + Passenger - ۱۱:٤٧ ‎ب.ظ ; چهارشنبه ۱٤ بهمن ۱۳٩٤

حکمت محض ....

حکمت محض است اگر لطف جهان آفرین

خاص کند بنده ای مصلحت عام را

دولت جاوید یافت هر که نکونام زیست

کز عقبش ذکر خیر زنده کند نام را

وصف ترا گر کنند ور نکنند اهل فضل

حاجت مشّاطه نیست روی دلارام را

در میان صفحات یکی از  کتابهام این شعر زیبا رو دیدم که نمیدونم چند سال پیش به یادگار نوشتم.   در جهان مدرن آکادمیک این دو سطر اول شعر حضرت سخن سعدی منو به یاد سیستم  citation و Google Scholar میندازه که : حکمت محض است اگر لطف جهان آفرین خاص کند بنده ای مصلحت عام را   ولی مهم این که : 

وصف ترا گر کنند ور نکنند اهل فضل  حاجت مشّاطه نیست روی دلارام را ... 

   + Passenger - ۱۱:۱٥ ‎ب.ظ ; جمعه ۱۱ دی ۱۳٩٤

...Seriously interesting

Listen to this programme. It's seriously intersting !

Personally after many years in this island and proudly being British (!!), still I don't understand Britons ! In each meeting I listen hardly and try to understand the true meanings of conversations and the same for emails! But according to this programme, it seems even Americans and Austrilians have the same feeling and problem when they move to United Kingdom ! Seriously   "The British are too polite to be honest, whereas the Germans are too honest to be polite!"  and still I prefer to communicate in a direct way and be honest ! Maybe in the shortterm, you seem bossy or it hurts but prefer to hear the truth rather than lie ... But  we should be careful, otherwise we finish with more dislikes, as Britons don't like to speak openly but honestly who cares!!!  

It is intersting to learn also the meaning of "Irony" and "Sense of Humor" and " British Jokes" which I hardly find them funny! I always have trouble with these words ! In my dictionary "Sense of Humor" means being funny and not serious and you can't trust the outcome of a task in someone with "Great sense of Humor !!" and it seems Germans are agree too and it is not just my seriousness!  

   + Passenger - ٩:۳٢ ‎ب.ظ ; جمعه ۱۱ دی ۱۳٩٤


از خاطرات عمر رفته ... 

این عکسهای کریسمس در کلن رو داشتم نگاه میکردم و یاد خاطرات خوبی که از سفر به کلن داشتم افتادم. هنوز منتظرم یک تعطیلات خانوادگی به کلن بریم. کلن منو همیشه به یاد فیلم "از کرخه تا راین" میندازه و بعد از این همه سال تا کلمه راین و کلن را میشنوم به یاد جانبازان شیمیایی و رنجی که کشیدند میافتم ....   اگرچه کلن خیلی خیلی شهر قشنگ و دوست داشتنی هست و من حاضرم هر سال به کلن برم  ولی بقیه شهرهای آلمان هم مثل درزدن -  راستوک - دوسلدروف - فرانکفورت- هامبورگ و مونیخ هم خیلی زیبا هستند . ولی بهترین خاطراتم از کلن و درزدن و راستوک است .  چرا؟ چون در هر کدوم از این شهرها با دوستان عزیزی بودم که خاطراتش یادگار مانده .. از شام به یاد ماندنی با ماریه در کلن  - تا پای سیب خوشمزه در درزدن بعد از گشتن شهر با اسب با دایلک و باران و اون هتل زیبا که صبحها با صدای ناقوس و اسبها بیدار میشدیم - و  مهمان نوازی فوق العاده گرم پروفسور هایدی در راستوک و اون رستوران زیبا در فانوس دریایی ...  کلا آلمان خیلی کشور دوست داشتنی است .  شهر دیگه ای که  هم خیلی دوست دارم ببینم هایدلبرگ هست ! شاید 2016 سال هایدلبرگ باشد ... 

پانوشت: کاشکی بعد از هر سفر خلاصه ای از سفرها بنویسیم  مثل سفرنامه ها  و نوشته های دکتر اسلامی ندوشن ...  

   + Passenger - ٤:٥٥ ‎ق.ظ ; سه‌شنبه ۸ دی ۱۳٩٤

چهره باران

امروز صبح موقع صبحانه داشتم نامه هایی که روز قبل پستچی آورده بود رو باز میکردم. یکی از این نامه ها از یکی از این چاریتهایی ( انجمنهای خیریه) بود که گاهگاهی کمک میکنم  و مثلا به مناسبت کریسمس نامه تشکر فرستاده بودند و یک کتابچه کوچک از فعالیتهای سال گذشته شان ... در همین حین باران داشت غرغر میکرد که من passion fruit دوست ندارم و دانه هاش سفت است و اینهایی که برایم صبحانه ام گذاشتی رو نمیخورم ....

داشتم همینطوری که کتابچه چاریتی رو میخوندم بهش گفتم بیا عکس این بچه ها رو ببین - توی سرما و برف ایستادند و هیچی ندارند و تو همش غرغر میکنی ( تازه خودمم تا همین چند سال بیش نمیدونستم passion fruit چیه !!) ...   اونم گفت بزار ببینم این بچه ها رو و از صفحه اول که گذشت قیافش عوض شد.  قیافه ای که هرگز ندیده بودم. در صورت یک بچه هفت ساله میشد ساده حالت خشم و عصبانیت رو دید. چند بار ورق زد و بعد آمد و گفت مامی باید به این دو تا کمک کنیم . بهش میگم فقط این دو تا نیستد و صدها هزار بچه دیگه هم هستند. بعد عکس دو تا بچه دیگه رو نشون میده و میگه برای چی دارند میخندند اگه هیچی ندارند... میگم : Because they need to be brave ....

باز چند دقیقه بعد میگه : 

Mummy, we do charity help at school too. Do you remember the movie night that you purchased the ticket for me but you didn't take me to movie, that was for charity !

 دوباره به کتابچه نگاه میکنه و همون حالت خشم و نفرت دوباره به چهره اش میاد  و بعد باز بعد از چند دقیقه میگه: 

We definetly definetly need to help these three...

این چهره باران رو هرگز فراموش نمیکنم ... 


بعد قراره امروز نامه به سانتا و دعای کریسمسمون رو بنویسه . بهش میگم بنویس : 

God, Please give us the power and wealth to be able to help others as much as we can ! Amen 


  • چند وقت پیش یک مقاله ای  می خوندم که کمکهایی که مردم به خیریه ها میکنند چگونه مصرف میشه و در حقیقت کمتر از 20% وقت صرف موضوع اصلی میشه ... و از اون وقت دیگه به اینگونه خیریه ها کمک هم نمیکنم . 

  • و اینکه جهان به کجا میرود ...

بنی آدم اعضای یک پیکرند
که در آفرینش ز یک گوهرند

چو عضوى به درد آورد روزگار
دگر عضوها را نماند قرار

تو کز محنت دیگران بی غمی
نشاید که نامت نهند آدمی

  • Human beings are members of a whole,
    In creation of one essence and soul.

    If one member is afflicted with pain,
    Other members uneasy will remain.

    If you have no sympathy for human pain,
    The name of human you cannot retain.

  • ----


   + Passenger - ۸:٤٧ ‎ب.ظ ; پنجشنبه ۳ دی ۱۳٩٤

مسیر زندگی مثل یه روده که یعنی راهی جز رفتن نداری....


قبولش کن اگه حتی شکستی نگو هرگز امیدت میره از دست

تو میدونی بریو پر بگیری اگه شوق رهایی تو دلت هست

نگو هرگز امیدت میره از دست مبادا وقت رفتن کم بیاری

مسیر زندگی مثل یه روده که یعنی راهی جز رفتن نداری

برو تا آخر دنیا سفر کن سفر کن تا دلت آروم بگیره

سفر مثل یه مرهم دلنشینه نزار حسش توی قلبت بمیره


مسیر زندگی مثل یه روده که آخر دل به دریا مسپاره

اگه بالاو پایین داره اما تهش حس رسیدن موندگاره

نگو هرگز امیدت میره از دست مبادا وقت رفتن کم بیاری


مسیر زندگی مثل یه روده که یعنی راهی جز رفتن نداری







   + Passenger - ٩:۱٢ ‎ق.ظ ; یکشنبه ٢٩ آذر ۱۳٩٤


  Dare to express your ideas without fearing ridicule. This is what the planetary configuration has to say to you today. This is exactly what you like because fear of ridicule is generally your Achilles' heel. The challenge for you today is to say what you think clearly without referring to or borrowing the ideas of others. Dare to do it!


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“Never be afraid to raise your voice for honesty and truth and compassion against injustice and lying and greed. If people all over the world...would do this, it would change the earth.” - William Faulkner


Watch this video: It's amazing !


"I freed a thousand slaves, I could have freed a thousand more if only they knew they were slaves".  (Harriet Tubman Civil Rights Activist (1822- 1913))



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